About My Meth Addiction Sept 13, 2005 23:32:32 GMT -5
Post by Blu on Sept 13, 2005 23:32:32 GMT -5
Hi my name is Dana. I'm a 41 yr old male, and I serve an awesome GOD. I'm now 2 yrs. sober from a 20 year drug/meth addiction. I'm hoping this testimony will help other addicts that might read it. You can Always call on God and I want you to know this.
The last 20 years of my life was addicted an assortment of drugs. But the biggest addiction of them all was the meth and that took over all the addictions. My life was a mess from within, but you couldn't tell by lookin at me. I was a miserable mental case, sad and suicidal.
My brother passed in 2002 at the age of 39 and that ruined me. I started to use more meth after he died. My heart was always in physical pain, and everytime I got high I thought I was going to have a heart attack, but I didn't care because I wanted to die and be with my brother.
GOD had another plan for me, though.
The last time I used meth was the night Jesus came and spoke to me. I believe I was dying at the time. I could feel my heart quitting on me.
I felt the devil pulling on me. My mind was going stir crazy. I was hearing "radio voices" in my head, and my heart felt like it had knives going through it. I could hear the devil saying to me, "Now you're mine." It was all so crazy. I was not in control at all. I thought I was dooomed for good.
Then I hear clear as ever, "Is this what you want?" "This isn't what you want!" "Call My Name and I will help you!" "Call My Name and I will save you." "Jesus is that You? Jesus I love You!"
"Im dying, Jesus, and the devil is pulling on me. He's got his claws in my heart, and my mind is going crazy. Jesus can You help me?! Can you make this all go away?" Slowly, it was all going away, and the last thing that left was the devil.
And then, it was just me and Jesus. Jesus said "Speak to Me of what is on your heart." "Jesus, I'm so messed up. Drugs make me want to die. My brother died and I miss him and want to be with him."
"Your brother is with Me." "Jesus I'm drug addicted and I can't stop on my own. I need You Jesus! Please help me?" Jesus said to me, "Go to sleep and when you wake up you will be new again."
I went to sleep and when I woke up the next morning, I was no longer addicted. I actually felt good in the morning! I didn't wake up feeling sick or needing my drug fix! I woke up feeling like I was never addicted! Telling my testimony makes me want to cry every time I tell it to someone.
I've been Blessed!!! Jesus saved me!!! I want to help people now - other addicts - youth addicts, adult addicts... who ever I can. But in Jesus' Name. I just dont know how to start. I don't have any resources for training. I want to preach the Good News - Jesus Loves Y-O-U. Right where you are.